T-Minus
May 30, 2008 ramblings, sojourn
These days seems just about everything is deadline driven. From dinner at 5:30 to get the kids somewhere by 6:15, to the next powerpoint at work, or preparing for my next trip — whether to Nashville or the grocery story. Good news is, I can do this! The bad news… I tend to stress and get caught up in details instead of enjoying the process and the moments that matter. While recently reading through some scripture in 1 Kings about Solomon’s wisdom, I realized, this is where I want to be — asking for and receiving wisdom into and for my life, just as Solomon did.
So I’m thinking I won’t have the whole jurisdiction over all these countries and peoples, and that’s cool with me, I have enough to handle with the single family in our household. And I don’t need to be great at everything I do, but be faithful and do things with the right heart and hope in that which I can’t see.
I can be a rather poor reader, usually 3-4 books at a time, struggling to finish any or all of them, sometimes having to restart and skim through a book to get reoriented. I’m currently going through “Purpose Driven Life” by Rick Warren, and finishing up the sections on seeing life from God’s view… life is a test, life is a trust, life is a temporary assignment (in a temporal place). Interestingly, before reading these chapters, I’d just written some songs easily tied back to these perspectives.
Kinda cool… then I think about practical application.
Of the three elements, trust is the one that frequently eludes me and pretty much causes the most turmoil in my life. To me, trust means totally reliquishing control. Should be easy seeing as I really don’t have control of anything to begin with except the choices I make. Some decisions should be black and white, right vs. wrong. It’s those where wisdom, instinct and desire collide that keep me on my toes, sometimes at the edge of a cliff, trying to balance choices against making “right decisions”.
Truth is, I’m at a point where I time should be one of the most compelling factors in choosing for the rest of my life. If I live to 100, my days are but the strike of a match in light of eternity… if I miss out on what today has to offer, tomorrow might be my eternity. Time to think about the countdown and live with a bit more reckless abandon and ferver.
God’s word says ask for wisdom, I’m asking … am I trusting?
Tags: eternity, time, trust, when I grow up